So lately someone I have been closest to for the last 3 years or so have gone from going distant to nothing. Its funny because I have tried for so long to let this person go for many reasons. Since the beginning it has been one misinterpitation to another. We have gone through thick and thin and there is no one I have EVER been closer to. Unfortunatly, we both have wanted something deffernt out of eachother since day one. People came to their own conclusions about us and that took a huge toll on our relationship/friendship (like the same thing).
All in all most of you know what you want about the two of us so there is no point in blabbing on. But lately its gotten to the point where its almost to the final end. And its really starting to catch up to me. I wish things would go back to how they were the first year we were friends but I know they never can. All I've been bitching about for the last couple months to happen has finally started to become official and now I don't know what to do. It really is scary knowing I've gone through handfulls of friends these last years and there is really only one person who has stuck it though and that's him. When he's completely gone who do I have left? Don't get me wrong I have plenty of friends and boys to go with but all in all eventually they all will end and I'll start all over with a new group....but there isn't that comfort of having having him there.


I hate time sometimes.....

Current Mood: gloomy

I'm leaving to go train hopping to Portland on Monday with Austin and Billy. Hopefully Justine will go too. I'm really excited yet kind of scared at the same time.

Sean is making me read something on trainhopping before I go haha.

Tyler comes to town tonight and were going to have a big get together here before we go out. I'm excited.

Oh! Also, I met a boy last night....that's all :)

Have a good Friday!

Current Mood: anxious

I hate when every night you go out with your friends YOU personally have to decide what were doing, when were going and for how long.

Annoying.

Goodnight.

Current Mood: tired

So since Justine and I have moved in together she had convinced me to start my like 3rd lj. I always end up forgetting about them though haha maybe this one will last.
We just moved into an awsome house that ended up being a party curse. I never thought I could live somehwere where I don't want to throw a party. But after several sad attempts that end up getting people 'stabbed' and can openers thrown at our ceiling fans (I mean 1970's called can openers that are the size of our microwave) we've decided to keep our partues no larger than get togethers and dance parties.
I've been talking to this guy (sadly via Myspace) lately a lot and am excited because he is the first guy in a long time I can actually have full out 3 hour convos with. He is suposed to come visit which will be fun :). CEPT he's in a band and I am a stong disbeliever in guys in bands and relationships. Especially since he's in a pretty big band and is almost always on tour..haha like that would ever work.
Uhm I don't have much more to say yet except Justine and I started a DJ company and we are DJ-ing at XO on Saturday. GO!!!!!

Kay my TV dinner is done so that's all.

P.S. Kether sucks.

Current Mood: hungry